What Turned my Head?

I am wonder what happened that I lost my momentum in my research. I think it was when I started fussing about money and how to make it. I have one of those "the grass is greener on the other side of the fence" genes and way too many self help programs.

I see people developing great internet companies and speaking empires. I think I could do that. I could. I can speak, I'm articulate. I haven't taken the steps to do it. Why? I see what is working in the money making arena but would I be sharing Truth or applying the latest technique to amass my personal wealth? I think wealth is good. What is the price?

Do I need to take a cruise or sit on a distant beach for nature to reveal her secrets to me? Are not the same secrets available for discovery right here on the farm in rural KY? I am reminded of the story "Acres of diamonds". The person searches the world over for the gems and someone else finds them right there on his original farm.

I have spent my entire life becoming awesome at relieving pain. No, I do not have money coming in while I take a vacation. I don't have passive income. But I have a gift of helping people feel better and teaching them to make choices that keep them feeling better. I encourage people to ask their own questions and find the answers that are bubbling up from within themselves. Maybe one day, my touch will comfort you.

What greater wealth can I want? Maybe these are the acorns I am planting. And one day they will sprout and renew the landscape. Can I stand before God in the end and say I was a spring in a parched and thirsty land? Is this why I love my life so much?