Did the rubberband break?
January 1, 2007 night time
Until now I have felt great forward momentum. Then, SNAP, I was flung back into old self pity, I can't do it territory. I indulged myself awhile and wondered at the the origin of the feeling. I did what I could make myself do, worked on a craft project, fed the llamas, did 11 minutes of (SSDN)sit still do nothing.
Eventually I had the image that these feelings are just part of playing on a bigger field, the action is out away from the 50 yeard line. My main goal is to keep the ball in motion and don't let the energy get stuck anywhere in particular. How much power is corralled in make nice. Make nice is how I shut down. Why I love my life has to do with feeling alive, even if outside my current comfort zone.
Until now I have felt great forward momentum. Then, SNAP, I was flung back into old self pity, I can't do it territory. I indulged myself awhile and wondered at the the origin of the feeling. I did what I could make myself do, worked on a craft project, fed the llamas, did 11 minutes of (SSDN)sit still do nothing.
Eventually I had the image that these feelings are just part of playing on a bigger field, the action is out away from the 50 yeard line. My main goal is to keep the ball in motion and don't let the energy get stuck anywhere in particular. How much power is corralled in make nice. Make nice is how I shut down. Why I love my life has to do with feeling alive, even if outside my current comfort zone.
posted by Patricia @ 12:20 PM
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